ARE YOU JUST A FANTASY?

The fantasies of the mind, a selfish thought?; Falling in love starts at some point, whether infatuation, lust, or grew to love someone, or love at first sight, fantasy is alive. Most fantasize about the one they love or would love. Some fantasies can turn to real love, that is, if we don't let our fantasies become the most important part of your relationship, then it's bound to doom as it survives on imaginings and doesn't have any substance to its survival. Fantasies can become an obsession and can lead to some bad and terrible outcome. It therefore becomes one's reality. Be careful with your fantasies. Does it control you or is it just a mere itsy, bitsy fantasy?

I look at you,
I dream of you
I long for you,
Such temptation,
Sweet temptation
You're a climax to my infatuation
Go away such selfish thoughts
You're nothing but a fantasy sought
I know you feel the same
I can make you happy
But you avoid my gaze
You really have me in a daze
Afraid I'll change your mind
Or are you're feeling the same
And willing to play my game?
Go away such tempting thoughts
You're a fantasy or are you not?

Copyrighted Dc Perez 2009

YOU ARE IMPORTANT

You are very important, let no one tell you less

GREAT WORDS AND DEED

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CONDITIONAL PEOPLE

Have you ever noticed that some people will love someone until that person did something wrong or out of the way, whether 'morally incorrect', they will stop being their friend? Where were you when I needed you?, is the cry of many who faltered whether through temptation or otherwise.

You see, there are some who make mistakes simply because their will power is weak, some would boast that they will never do such, because they are strong-willed, so why do one cry down the one who's weak when you can uplift them from that stage instead of further pushing them down and beating up on their bruised ego further?

I believe every mistake should and can be corrected and made to be a lesson as harsh as it may be, but never to be exaggerated. I believe most people do not reform because society has failed them, they believe and see that society always scorn them after they have committed any misdeed. How do one rise from that feeling if it's being throw down their throats daily and is reminded of their failures.

We let people pay for their crimes or misdeeds over and over by pulling them down even when they try to rise though remorseful, our unforgiving spirits are cruel to the mistakes of humans, though we are all liable to err.

One of my favorite celebrities of all times, and I've seen many more since, was in the news and they repeatedly drive hm under with all the accusation though pleaded guilty, although it was a petty crime, we forget we are all humans and we all can err, but yet I've seen people who adored him, simply lost adoration simply because of a stupid mistake and thing he did. This is what I call conditional love at its best, the I will love you only if and the I will not love you if you did wrong.

Who are we to judge people? we are all witnesses, not judge. Who am I to judge anyone? I won't condone a person's wrongdoing but I will not hate them, half of the time people need counseling to get them off their down spiraling track, though for some it's useless as they may be simply evil in their tendencies.

We further alienate people when we judge them without trying to understand why or what caused them to do that particular misdeed.

I always have and will continue to say that most people are seasonal and conditional; the majority of people will drop you and become isolated from you if you did something terribly wrong. Jesus thought us to hate the sin and not the sinner.

You see I believe everyone should be given another chance to reform, only God is the judge. I remember having a discussion with a few buddies who I considered to be 'Bible-under-the-arms-Christians', they are what I consider self-righteous people, who thinks no one should falter if you know the word of God, I had to remind them we are still living in the flesh and we were not made angels, not saying that this is an excuse for wrongdoing, even the FALLEN angels as the Bible stated came down and lived with the women of the earth.

I say all this to say. we are merely mortals, trying our utmost best to live a pleasing and righteous life on this given earth and are liable to err yet we continue to down press our kinds when they falter believing we will never do the same, and can never do the same instead of picking them up, brushing them off and give them a little push to get on their feet again instead we stomp them to the ground.

I look way past the misdeed and see the person behind it. Is that person truly evil, was it influence, was it a stressing moment, temptation, whatever that led to the 'crime'? I'm in no way condoning a crime but I believe as soon as someone does something wrong we sometimes tend to become judge and jury automatically, never sifting though the probabilities and reasons and even though they might have been reform in prison we still do not give them a chance, their stain is all we see, so when they are back in society we still see them as what they WERE, how can someone rise above that stigma after paying their dues and are remorseful, when we forever let them pay for that wrongdoing by stigmatizing and alienating them?

I've seen it with many celebrities who got charged for silly acts and we simply lost our adoration for them, we forget they were and are good actors, singers, role players.

Would you do that to your very, very best friend; would you desert them if they ever did something wrong, criminally, though you love them dearly, simply cutting off all the ties, even though they are remorseful and beg forgiveness?

Or are we simply, self-righteous people who see wrong in others and never see perfection in ourselves. The 'this can or will never happen to me or the I'll never do that' kind. You may not do what they might have done, but you may simply find yourself doing something else just as bad. You may just need someone to understand and be there for you too, you never tell.

I've heard so many say they'll defend their families to the end if someone tried to attack them, should that becomes a crime. Won't you want others to stand by you and still love you unconditionally because it was a mistake as passionate as it may have been, chances are you may have to pay for the crime even if you didn't face jail, the stigma that you've injured , hurt or probably killed someone remains and that is what the human mind do not forget, they like to go back into the past and don't see now, a new day , a new chance and a new person.

Will you forgive yourself, will you forgive your friend. Or are we simply conditional people. I hate the sin but not the sinner.

Copyrighted 2009 Dc Perez

POSITIVE THINKING

Positive thinking is an attitude with the help of which you can overcome obstacles and fulfill your dreams. It can bring happiness, health, and satisfactory results for every situation.

Not all accept positive thinking or believe in it. Some believe that this is an absurdity, while others laugh of those who believe and accept such an attitude. But among those who accept it, there are not many people who use it properly to get results. However, it looks like the interest in this direction is increasingly higher – a good proof are the books, seminars and courses and the importance of the psychological factor in career and life.

We often hear the call “Think positive!”, addressed to those who are depressed and worried. Many don’t believe in these words, because they don’t understand their meaning or they don’t think these words can be useful. There are not many people who ask themselves the question: “What can the power of positive thinking do for me”?

First of all, both positive and negative thinking are contagious. By the way we think and react we all have more or less influence, both on us - as a physical and mental function - but also on people we meet. This happens instinctively, at a subconscious level, and it manifests by the impact that our own thoughts, emotions and feelings have on our transformation in life, on the other hand it manifests through the transfer of these thoughts and emotions to all those around us.

People perceive the aura around us and are influenced by our thoughts, whether they realize this or not. Is it any wonder that we all are looking for the company of positive people and we instinctively keep the distance from those negative people? People are more willing to help us if we are positive.

Thoughts, words and negative attitudes, cause negative actions. When you think negatively, in the blood are released a number of harmful substances that can cause more misery and negativity. Fear and negative feelings are consuming all our energy, and bad moods generate chain reactions and decisions of questionable quality.

To have a positive thinking an internal training is necessary. Attitude and thoughts do not change overnight. Read more about this issue, consider the benefits and convince yourself that it must be integrated in your life. The power of thought is immense and it practically leads us in life. This thing occurs often at a subconscious level, but we can turn this process into a consciously one. Although the idea may seem strange, you must try to put into practice.

Smile more, because this will help you think positively. If you refuse to turn into a victim and are you are optimistic and confident, you will be able to gradually change the way of thinking, and will be able to find the best solutions with really remarkable results.

If you feel that your thoughts want to go negative, do not feed the conflict. Today there are many people who can be considered fulfilled in many plans, master the art of positive thinking and, as a result, live a life of quality in the real sense. You CAN DO IT! Trust your mind and your heart.....

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THE OPENED DOOR

NEVER BE DISCOURAGED

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BE HAPPY

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I WISH

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MOVE ON

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PERSEVERE

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TODAY'S QUOTE

Become an ANTENNAE for POSITIVE signals & vibrations. You create your REALITY. If you think POSITIVE, positive energies will surround and inhabit you even in the midst of negativity. Be careful with your thoughts, YOUR THOUGHTS BECOME YOU, process positive thoughts daily. Be the antennae for positive signals, others will surely pick up your signals. Sending everyone POSITIVE signals......Dc Perez

MENTAL SLAVERY

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TOMORROW......disguised as TODAY

My philosophy has always been TOMORROW always comes; it's just a matter of, if you don't see it, you were not planned to be in it. I consider my TOMORROW is always TODAY. Be inspired by this piece.

Video Produced and Edited by Dc Perez

I'LL CARRY YOU UNTIL YOU CAN CARRY YOURSELF

Help carry someone's burden along the way. It will a blessing

AVOID NEGATIVE PEOPLE

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YOU ARE THE APPLE OF MY EYE

BE ENCOURAGED

LIFE'S JOURNEY

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LIFE'S JOURNEY

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LOVE

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ENVY NO ONE

THE ANCHOR HOLDS

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A NEW DAY

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YOUR BOOK OF LIFE

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LIFE'S LESSONS

GET ON WITH LIFE

THE BLEEDING HEART

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SOME INSPIRING PHOTOS

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KNOW YOUR WORTH

I cried a river of flowing unending tears
It wasn't the pain of being hurt
It was a joyful river of tears
I was freed from the bondage that I held within
I cried a river of flowing tears
Tears which accumulated through the years
They were tears of a glorious birth
A voice whispered to me, "Know your worth"
I cried a river of Joyful tears
Telling me I am wonderfully and uniquely made
I am now celebrating my new identity
As I watch my past fade away to eternity

YOU ARE WORTHY

BELIEVE YOU ARE WORTHY

KNOW YOUR WORTH

Copyrighted Dc Perez 2009/05/26

IF YOU ONLY KNOW

The rantings of a rejected lover? There are people who reject an intended romantic partner's advance for a particular reason or another, but because that person has decided to not pursue that person anymore and look for a relationship in someone else, now that someone else has won and you are miserably pursuing him or her when he or she is already 'taken'.

Stop wishing, hoping and crying over spilled milk. You had him or her right there in the palm of your hands and for some reason played hard to get, or it may have been that you thought someone else was a better choice than them, but lost in the end because you were deceived, now you wish you had grabbed the opportunity while it stared you in the eyes.

GET YOUR OWN and move on, may I say.

If you only know
That I whisper your name
When I sleep at nights
That I call out to you
Wish you were here with me
'til the morning light

If you only know
That I'd be wanting to tell you
How much I adore you
But you keep passing on by
Simply waving a short bye-bye

If you only know
How much I love you
Wishing you were near
Wanting to tell you so
But all you said was hello

If you only know
How much I need your kiss
That it is you that I truly miss
I yearn for your warm embrace
Oh how I'd love to see your face

If you only know
How I dream of your arms around me
Caressing and touching me gently
I regret I didn't look your way
Nor listened to what you had to say

If you only know
That the thought of you makes me ponder
Though seem impossible, I'll have you never
I now wish I can turn back time
Time when you could have been mine

If you only know
That I cry myself to sleep at nights
Although I know this is not right
I have lost out on my many chances
I'm so sorry I had ignored your advances

Copyrighted Dc Perez 2009/05/26

TOMORROW....Disguised as TODAY

My philosophy has always been TOMORROW always comes; it's just a matter of, if you don't see it, you were not planned to be in it. I consider my TOMORROW is always TODAY.

I had a conversation TODAY with TOMORROW and this is what he said.

This poem says it all....

I asked Tomorrow;

Why do they call you 'Tomorrow',
When you have never come?
You have always made Today
Beat you to the count

Why are you such a coward,
Why don't you ever show your face?
Always letting Yesterday and Today
Beat you to the race

Yesterday has come and gone,
Today is here, right where it belongs
Why are you still hiding,
Keep me waiting here so long?

Who really cares about 'Tomorrow?'
I am simply living for 'Today',
The day has ended and as I fell fast asleep
Another day named, 'Today'; in he slowly creeps

Then he boldly said:

I am called Tomorrow;

Why are you so mad at me ?
I'm always here waiting so patiently,
Do you really think I do not care
While to the Hopeful, I'm so dear?

Impatience makes you say such awful things of me
'Today' always comes as me, so disguisedly
You see, I am also fully disguised as Hope
Disguised for those who are patiently willing to cope

Please don't worry if you never see me come
Because ‘Today’ will always do my daily rounds
And willingly take my rightful place
So you see, I never, ever lose the race

‘Today’ and I work hand in hand for all
Especially for the ones who Hope and call
However, ‘Today’ is always given the credit
Because 'Tomorrow' is always judged on merit

Then I said to 'Tomorrow'....

Forgive me for judging you so terribly
I never waited around for you patiently
Because 'Today' is who I always knew
I never put off what I can do for ‘Today’
Because ‘Tomorrow’ always seemed so far away

Then he proudly said,

"I am always there for those who still have HOPE in me, I am called TOMORROW"

Then I walked on with a big smile, knowing that though I believe in Today and Now, that as long as there is a Tomorrow; Hope, Faith and Perseverance will exist and probably someone will have a brighter TODAY and TOMORROW.

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Simply Appreciating that TOMORROW ALWAYS COMES; BUT always disguised as TODAY

Written by DC Perez 2009/05/20

APPRECIATE.......STOP BEING MISERABLE

Quit being miserable and learn to make a difference by trying to change the situation. Quit complaining about everything, everybody and make a change, BE THE CHANGE. There are those who needlessly complain, the miserable kind. Nothing is good enough. There's so much I am grateful for and so much to be grateful for. Simply appreciate...

Some complaints go like these: (I'm sure you can add lots more)

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* The kids are a bother

- Some wish they can have kids
Appreciate - Enjoy them they are God's gift

* The birds sings too loud

- Some wish they can hear - They're deaf
Appreciate- Sing louder than them and with them

* The dogs bark too loudly

- Some long for a pet
Appreciate - Play with them or talk to them

* The flower petals and leaves are dropping all over the place

- Some wish they can see the beauty of a flower and its beautiful petals
Admire the beauty of those retired fallen leaves, learn that we all one day will retire too

* The Sea is raging

- Some wish they can hear and see it
Appreciate - enjoy those pounding waves

* The Sun is too hot

- Some pray for those days that the rain will cease
Appreciate - welcome a shiny bright day

* Outside is too cold

- Some prefer the coldness
Appreciate - use the chance to cuddle up and relax

* The weather is too hot and humid

- Some love that weather for family outings
Appreciate - use the chance to get out and absorb the goodness of nature

* The outside is too bright

- Oh beautiful sunlight
Appreciate - welcome in the light, light into your life

* Outside is too dark

-Watch the magic of the night, look at the stars in the sky
Appreciate - be mesmerized by the moon and the stars, relax and dine

* My kids are too noisy

- The joys of hearing beautiful, innocent sometimes mischievous laughter
Appreciate - enjoy their laughter, laugh with them


* The food is not tasty and it is bland

- Some didn't eat today, they are sick or they are homeless, orphaned or just can't afford
Appreciate you can eat a meal

* Tired of cooking everyday

- Some don't even have a choice of meals
Appreciate - some have no choices to cook, they live on food stamps, or caught up in famine etc

* The bed is not soft or hard enough, mattress needs changing

- Some do not have beds to sleep on, they lie on concrete or make-shift cardboard boxes
Appreciate and be happy you can sleep on a bed!

* Don't have any cable

- Some don't even have TVs
Appreciate that you can still watch a movie at least

* Need a new pair of Brand named shoes and clothing

- Some don't even have shoes nor clothes, they wear 'hand me downs'
Appreciate you are blessed and probably own more than two pairs

* I want a bigger house

Some sleep in a shelter
Appreciate you are blessed to have a home

I am not saying that you shouldn't aim for Better, but we lose the importance of APPRECIATION when we complain needlessly and excessively, making us MISERABLE people, if you are willing to make things and your situation better just DO IT, quit complaining excessively, only you can change your situation. No matter how bad you may want something and you got it and have a negative mindset you'll never be pleased or satisfied, you always want more and more, simply bypassing Appreciation. That is what I will call GREED

Look around you now and see the the things around you that add joy to your life and simply Appreciate it or them with a Smile, it could be worse. Appreciate while you strive for better, that gratitude will be rewarded probably ten times more or even more when you APPRECIATE more.

CHEERS TO YOU!!

APPRECIATE WITH A SMILE

25 RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME..

1. I am the last and the baby in a family of 3 sisters and 3 brothers.

2. I greet each Day with a welcome and positive feeling. - as long as I get up and can move my toes and fingers I’m good to go, Good Day World it is! And ready to take on the challenge whatever it brings.

3. I‘ll turn the house upside down in a jiffy. - all because I am feeling down and need my spirit uplift and find joy in changing around the house furnishings, I once had a friend who on visits used to tell me, ‘one day I’ll come here and find all the furnishing outside’..lol..It’s a de-stresser for me.

4. I am a very positive person, - I love to encourage people that no matter how dreary life appears there’s a rainbow around the corner and there’s always another tomorrow, I am hopeful I’ll always see another tomorrow and if I don’t, my life was not planned to be in that tomorrow.

5. I am a very loyal, honest and devoted person, - whether friendship or in love. That’s the contents and aura of my soul, I am no less than what I exude, no pretense. I’ll tell you like it is, no sugarcoating, people are drawn to me because of my confidentiality, (don’t need to tell someone about another, it’s none of their business) and my positive and down to earth compassionate nature, which some take for granted, however if I do find out you are out to use me, I’ll forgive you but you’ll sure lose my friendship. Take heed!

6. I am in love with me, not vainfully. - I have to love me in order to love you, or I’ll be fooling myself, I couldn’t love unconditionally if I didn’t love myself. At one time in my life, I was an introvert, never expressive until I went into a deep depression and almost lost my soul to satan, however I’ve bounced back and in His shining glory, I’m a new person and possess a different spirit that can climb any mountain, tread every valley and hills, touch the air and clouds, yeah right! I am dreaming, yes - I have big dreams..

7. I am not a bitter person, very forgiving. - I keep nothing bad/negative on my mind/heart because it makes one resentful, bitter and that’s wasted energies, negative energies. I’m sure to have a good sleep at nights because I really don't go to sleep with a ‘heavy’ heart despite all the confusion life can sometimes throw at you.. I usually joke, if you don’t snore hard when you’re asleep, you’re not sleeping joyfully, I snore, yes I do, I am told..lol

8. I have been married and divorced - my son’s father and I remained very good friends, one of the most amicable divorces, I don’t believe we’d be good friends if I didn’t open my heart and be forgiving, knowing the way we parted.. We have to let go of all our bitterness and disappointments in life and love to allow our hearts to heal and to go on to the next stage in life. Look at it as a chapter in your life, turn the leaf, a new page. No animosity, a feeling that gives you a line in the middle of your forehead that only Botox injection can remove..lol

9. I wrote a book of my first and only pregnancy, son and only child in 1998 and has it on CD but never got around to do a full print out, it’s entitled, “For this Child I prayed”.

10. Most of my computer skills were self-taught and acquired during my most challenging times in my life, I was very hurt and depressed so I invested in a PC and taught myself to use it, I taught myself graphics, web designing, and my Editing skills came from writing my first book. I used my negative energies at that time and turned it into positive energies, which also means I don’t regret being placed in that trying situation of my life. Lessons well learned.

11. My son is the love of my life - and I believe he was sent in my life for a reason and as a cushion to what I had to face during a period in my life, look around you and you’ll see everything and person who enters your life has a role to play in your life, no matter how trivial and sometimes pestering it/they may seem, they are there for a reason, or maybe a season or a lifetime.

12. I admit I talk a lot and write a lot, - the result of not having expressed myself for a long time, being silent too long with my emotions and feelings, now I’ve let go and have become very expressive breaking all my silence that was pent up in me for so long. .It’s important to take time to listen and I also learn the importance of talking, but only talking to the right people..

13. I love and embrace humanity, regardless of race, - I love all the flavors He created and am not bias to race, creed or class, everyone is important in their own way. I love the healing powers of Yoga and Reiki so I practice it and is always looking for ways to improve myself holistically and be of influence positively and to help others achieve that oneness with themselves and their spirit.

14. I really love animals - but I am afraid to own one because if it dies I’ll cry like a hyena..lol.. so I take none home but play with people’s, they are very loving creatures, if one takes time to be absorbed into their love, I had a fish which I loved and had died but could not flush it down the toilet as some people do, so I placed it in a match box and buried it with flowers placed on the spot where it was buried...

15. I 'went' near death in 1990 - and came back, an episode I grew from in my life, everything happens for a reason.

16. There’s nothing I regret doing/happening in my life, - they all turned out as a play, in sequence from one episode to the other, actually my life is like a book/movie filled with some suspense, thriller, love scenes, drama, comedy, everything combine and we all hope the movie ends up really good, don’t we?, I say let it play out, hopefully in the end it will be a good movie, a good life, Be still and know I am God. Let it flow. My experiences were positive life lessons and has sure made me into a better individual.

17. I am a whisperer of good tidings, for the world, - I pray silently and incessantly and for anyone who needs a little encouragement in life..

18. I love music but can’t play a tune,..lol.. - own a guitar, keyboard, about to buy a drum set for my son, music is a comfort to my soul, I like almost every music, my favorite however is Salsa, the drumming tantalizes me, and African drumming wakes up my haunting spirit to dance and just be absorbed into the rhythm, I own tons and tons of songs.

19. I hate pretentious, hateful, jealous people. - They are a vexation to my spirit,. I surround myself with only positive people, hence I don’t have many friends, they are very few. and those I have and keep are very genuine ones..

20. I haven’t had many boyfriends - but fell in love with the wrong ones, lessons learnt, well learnt.

21. I love to laugh endlessly, a very joyful person. - It’s laughter that gives me that positive attitude, we must stop and smell the coffee/rose sometimes, life is not about seriousness alone and even in seriousness one can find a laugh.

22. I love my mum and dad very much, - they have instilled in me some values, principles and qualities that are hard to come by these days, I don’t regret the way they raised me though I was vex with some of their rules and I haven’t strayed much..lol. Thanks dad for your 'copish' and strict attitude. My dad was a cop.

23. I don’t go partying much, - I've been to disco/dancing only five times in my life nor do I enjoy large crowds, I feel intimidated in crowds, I am also afraid of heights, enclosed spaces and going on boat trips, I sound like no fun but I make up for that in many other ways..lol. I love the outdoors, picnics and nature.

24. My son and I celebrate our birthdays one week apart, he was my birthday gift...lol

25. I believe we are all here for a significant purpose and not by accident, - our purpose must be fulfilled, no one dies before it's their time, it's only when it happens we can't face the stark, cold reality that that person's time on earth was fulfilled even though they might have left in a cruel and terrible way. Even Jesus left in a cruel way, and his purpose was fulfilled. That's just how some of our drums will beat. I don’t believe in accidents nor luck, just fate and destiny.

LIFE IS GOOD,..

LIFE IS GREAT..

LIVE EVERYDAY LIKE IT'S YOUR LAST DAY..

HAPPINESS IS A STATE OF MIND

Copyrighted Dc Perez 2009

I CONQUERED.....

We do posses a strong will and power to conquer any adversity we face, only if we believe in ourselves and believe we can. I now realize that every situation in life has a purpose, be still and listen to the message in the midst of that crisis. I now mentor the depressed and down-trodden souls, I've been there but it was only meant for a purpose, now I know...

I love who I am..
Every pore,
Way down to my core
Every sigh, every high
Every hurt, every thought
Every pain, every gain

I love who I have become..
I’ve let go of my hurt and my pains
I am reaching for the sky again
I no longer feel like I’m tied
Nor buried underneath a tide

I am thankful that I have cried..
Tears that have never lied
In my deepest depression
I found a strange consolation
Lifted my head up off my shame
Now I can face the world again

I am humbled by my failings..
Hung in there in hope and aspirations
Saw a rainbow in the midst of my frustration
I didn’t give up, I didn’t give in
No one knows where I’d been
Though dreary, I didn’t give in and die
Nor did I whisper why, oh why

I remained humbled and silent..
In my solitude, I achingly vent
Found the solution was lying within me
I stopped blaming myself and my past
So that I could slowly move on
And be finally happy at last

My soul had cried tormenting pain...
That I swore I’ll never be whole again
But in my depth of my silent pain
I’ve learnt to love and live again
I love the lustre of the new soul I have
Smiling and looking at the footprints I’ve carved

I appreciate what I’d been through..
As painful as it had been
A lesson, so cruel yet sublime
Never in my obscure and wildest dream
Thought I would ever rise again
I am now made completely new
And has a totally different view

I believe and know who I am ...
A unique and wonderful being
With beauty emanating from within
You know not how far and deep I’ve been
To create an everlasting imprint
In the minds of everyone I meet
A wondrous creation so complete

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REASON, SEASON and LIFETIME........Pay Attention to the Purpose!

A reason, a season or a lifetime. People enter our lives for a reason, a season and a lifetime.

I believe that everyone is important in this world, and we are here to teach each other and everyone who enters our lives, a lesson, an experience, can be learnt from them, even if its a cruel and harsh lesson, it's a lesson and experience all the same, it's what we do with that lesson and experience, do we grow from it or never noticed or take heed to that lesson.

Nothing is by chance, its a definite plan, every reaction develops from every action
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When I say I don't regret my hurts and failings in life, I meant it taught me a great lesson and made me grow from strength to strength, you can't fight destiny, whatever happens in your life were meant to happen, Every happenings in my life had a reason and a purpose and so did people who enters your life. Whatever I'd been through in my life, harsh and cruel, sweet and kind made me who I am today, a stronger woman and full of resilience and importantly a better person.

So may times someone may have entered your life and leave for no reason or a reason, you must remember that their purpose in your life has been fulfilled, don't try to convince them to stay, if they are adamant to leave, it's in the plan that the reason, season has ended, just accept it and move on but grow from and learn and figure out the lesson that the person has taught you.

I am happy to have known the people that I've met on my life journey so far, everyone has taught me the lesson that was meant to be in my life, the harsh realities and the kind and loving realities, they have taught me to be strong, made me realize that I have a defiant and fighting spirit that went through scrapes and bruises and wounds and healed. They have shown me that the world despite its unkindness, that kindness and good can surface in the midst. Despite how cruel and harsh life may have been to you, the hurt, pains and frustrations are all meant to be lessons, although they were painful lessons.

If someone enters your life, though they maybe a pest to you, figure out their purpose there is a lesson that is being learnt from them,. it may appear insignificant at that time but be assured it's meant to be a lesson as trivial as it may seem.

The 'for a REASON' people comes to assist you, to teach you in preparation for your next journey, Embrace them, they sometimes stay.

The 'for a SEASON' people comes to teach you something and leave, Don't try to keep them, they are only there for a season, their reason which was a season is fulfilled. Do enjoy the seasonal people, they may leave lasting memories, as short as their time was with you.

The 'for a LIFETIME' people, are like guardian angels, let them stay, even if they are pestering, they are there to keep you on your P's and Q's, very purposeful. As pestering as some 'lifetime' people may appear, they are there to let you not become so complacent and whatever they are putting you through is to teach you to rise above and stay afloat. It is like a test.

Trust me, they are all teachers, figure out the lesson and pay attention to their purpose in your life, no one survives alone. So when someone departs from your life, whether through death or not, be assured their purpose in your life is fulfilled, learn the lesson which was sent to teach you by that person and treasure it.

I don't know what my purpose is in your life, but it is/was one of the three, whatever it is/was, I hope you learnt a lesson and experience that is/was positive.

I want to say thanks for being part of my life whether you are/were for a reason, a season or a lifetime. I welcome you and embrace you, you complete my life here on earth and your purpose is/was well served.

LIVE LIFE,
ENJOY LIFE,
EMBRACE LIFE
AND NEVER TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED

Written by D.C. Perez
All rights reserved. © Dc Perez

Finally found LOVE.......

This poem is abstract, it is meant to express the longings of wanting to be loved, finding love, embracing and cherishing love. Not just sexual love but that love we all should possess in our hearts and soul.

Oh Love, Elusive Love
Why are you so elusive
Could it be that you're exclusive
Exclusive, that I've become reclusive
Reclusive has made me compulsive
Compulsive that it makes me indecisive
Love why do you have me so confused

Oh Love, Tormenting Love
Why do you torment my wretched soul
Torture me silently that I cry endlessly
Cry myself to painful and sleepless nights
Rip my heart to pieces, you're nowhere in sight
Love come to me, I long to feel your warm embrace

Oh Love, Sweet Love
Show me your compassionate face
To the heart that wants and yearns,
Needs and longs for your soothing embrace
Could it be that you have forever vanish
Vanish from my life without a trace?

Oh Love, Exciting Love
Finally you are here with me
How you please my soul immensely
Excite me with your soothing touch
A touch I longed for so very much
I feel your love caressing my aching heart

Oh Love, My Lost Love
I have finally found you,
Or was it that you've always been here
Waiting for me with open arms, to accept you?
Right there in my heart and soul
Oh love, why did you elude me
And played this cruel game on me

Oh Love, My Haunting Love
You made me cry a million tears
That worsened all through the years
I stopped and thought for a while
And discovered that you had never left my side
But was waiting on me to embrace and accept you
Into the depths of your peaceful and tranquil sea

Oh Love, My Precious Love
My heart is now serene and complete
Right here you'll stay forever love,
You were there all the time and never left
I embrace you, I cherish you.
Oh Love, Supreme Love,
I finally found love..

Copyrighted 2009 Dc Perez 2009/03/10

THE ANCHOR HOLDS....

We must reach out to the down trodden Give hope to the hopeless. Your candle is lit until the end. Never give up. In the midst of suffering and sadness and trials, joy can show its face

Why not bring light to someone's darkness? Do you see what a positive smile can do to a distressed soul, some great inspiring words or deed can turn someone's darkness into a ray of light?

Be still even in the midst of your confusion and listen to your heart, listen to that silent voice, look into your inner guide, so many times I am caught up with my family stresses and only realize when I get into my own space and alone time, quality time, do I 'find' myself, my inner peace, my solace, the peace which when tapped into, can radiate your soul, and radiate from within that it radiates around you, everything as chaotic as they are, seems peaceful and calm, can you understand?

I 'find' myself to re-focus, absorb my light and let it glow from within, so i can solve my problems, the echoing of all life's confusion, confuses your mind, your time and your space. are you feeling me? I find a sense of peace within me that in the midst of quarrel and confusion, I an eerily and surprisingly still and peaceful, despite the fact that I am an exuberant and anxious person, I learnt to be anxious for nothing, I am filled with an inexplicable joy within me, a joy that surpasses even my understanding after having been a depressive person nearly twenty years ago

Why am I so relaxed and joyful, though things are collapsing around me emotionally? I being a single, divorced mum, has an Alzheimer mum to take care of, and a hyper 11 year old and yet as stressing as that situation is, I am holding on bravely that some friends are wondering how I cope mentally especially with an Alzheimer mum .

You see I believe every circumstances and experience and lessons in life are sometimes meant to prepare you for the challenges you may face in the later stages in your life; the unexpected, but the intended, because I believe in destiny. I believe it was the conditioning of my mind and heart, and having dealt with a divorce, becoming single, and raising a child alone from the marriage, built the resiliency in me so when
I was faced with the task of taking care of my mum, I was pre-programmed with tolerance and patience, love and gratitude, and we all know that Alzheimer is a crippling mental disease that emotionally drags you into it.

I am actually watching one of the loves of my life deteriorate mentally right before my eyes and I can't really do anything about it but offer that unconditional love but my anchor still holds in the midst of my tumultuous storm. I truly believe that God has chosen me to walk the journey alongside her, though I have many other siblings but they live away from, it meant my private and personal life became on hold for a while, while I take that journey with her. There is a lesson learning in the process, humility, selflessness, patience, tolerance and even gratitude.

I believe we sometimes go through situations in preparation for what is to come in life, I now believe, I've been prepared from those lesson; believe me, Alzheimer patients are difficult to deal with and handle, as their memories deteriorate as the months/years go by but I have an unconditional love for my mum though I am the only one dealing with her as all her kids, my brothers and sisters, are living abroad so there's no physical nor emotional back-up/support but I am committed to doing it.

I've bear many crosses in life and every part of the journey so far has led me sequentially from one journey to another and prepared me for the other steps of my journey in life and has led me and guide me all the way to this eventual moment in my life and on my journey. I still hope to find someone/others who will encourage and inspire me along the way and journey and help keep that candle burning.

The happiness I found inside me is a realism and determination that I can do it, face the odds head on. I realize I had to look within me to find the peace, comfort, encouragement, even if the world fails me, to go on and also to extend that peace, that overwhelms me, and to others. That peace I found is overwhelming and alarming as I'd been such a confused and depressed person a while ago.

I realize I had a determination and will power to deal with almost every problem and obstacle no matter how surmounting that problem is, not necessarily giving up what the problem is but look inside myself, within me to find the solution, how do I explain this? I believe the peace you find within yourself you can conquer whatever you are facing.

I am full of joy, I laugh endlessly, that doesn't mean I don't have stresses, I do, it's right in front me everyday but in the midst of it I know all is not lost and learn to smile and laugh really loud, really hard and really long.

Even in the midst of my darkness and darkest hours I always and still keep the candle lighted, my candle, it will always lead my way and cover all my darkest moments and hours.

We all have a candle; What do you do with yours, do you let your candle burn so bright in your hours of darkness that the only dark you see in it is the reflection of your shadow. Keep your candle lighting, and also keep another one lighting for a brother just incase he needs one or can not find his way..

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, MUM!

Written by D.C. Perez
All rights reserved. © Dc Perez 2009

Below is an inspirational song by Ray Boltz

The Anchor Holds - Ray Boltz

I have journeyed
Through the long, dark night
Out on the open sea
By faith alone
Sight unknown
And yet His eyes were watching me

CHORUS:
The anchor holds
Though the ship is battered
The anchor holds
Though the sails are torn
I have fallen on my knees
As I faced the raging seas
The anchor holds
In spite of the storm

Ive had visions
Ive had dreams
Ive even held them in my hand
But I never knew
They would slip right through
Like they were only grains of sand

CHORUS

I have been young
But I am older now
And there has been beauty
That these eyes have seen
But it was in the night
Through the storms of my life
Oh, that's where God proved
His love to me
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DON'T GIVE UP
DON'T GIVE IN
STAY STRONG
THE ANCHOR HOLDS IN THE MIDST OF THE STORM

YOU ARE...

You are.
The very first soothing touch I feel
I still can't believe you are real
You are.. the breath besides my face
As you hold me tenderly in a sweet embrace

You are..
The joy that overflows my heart
I hope my darling we will never part
You are...the tingling I feel in my soul
The one whom my heart enfolds


You are
The warm glimmer in my smiles
You bring me joy beyond a million miles
You are my constant shadow in the dark
You're always there, right behind my back

You are
The aroma and taste of my early morning breakfast
Oh how I pray this wonderful feeling will last
You are the smooth strides in my steps
Oh Boy, Ooh you are my best secret well kept.


Yes, you are
You are, the love of my life

Written by D.C. Perez
All rights reserved. © Dc Perez 2009/03/18

I HAVE THE ABILITY..

Tap into your potential, we all have the ability to make this a better and happier world for all.

I have the ability
To rise above my painful transgression
To fight against all spiteful oppression
To find a good and positive solution
To make a new and great transformation


I have the ability
To make a positive difference each and everyday
To change a person's thinking with the words that I say
To listen to the troubled and silent sighs
Of those longing to hear a comforting, 'It's alright'

I have the ability
To be more loving and kind to everyone
To make a positive impact when I am gone
To be compassionate to the hurting
To be understanding to the deserted

I have the ability
To give and love unconditional
To triumph and rise after I stumble and fall
I have the ability to forgive and forget
Though others haven't forgiven and forgotten yet
I have the ability to learn from my failings
To climb above it and go on sailing

We all have that ability to make a difference
Do you use your ability?

Written by D.C. Perez
All rights reserved. © 2009/03/21 Dc Perez

I FELT YOUR PAIN..

This poem is in consolation to the frustrated individuals who have lost hope and believe the world has failed them and finally found the joy and strength within themselves to go on and face life head on.

Happiness is a state of mind, even the vagrant in his abode finds contentment in his confines, though depressing to others, it's his reality that he's accepted, the average person, wants to be rich and is always seeking better, nothing is wrong with that, however, their happiness is measured and won't accept 'happiness' unless they're rich hence I say happiness is a state of mind.

Be grateful and contented with your small or big blessings whichever way one looks at it, because a small blessing to someone may be a big blessing to another. Be grateful for small mercies. Never stop reaching for the stars, but if you didn't get to touch the stars, I'm sure you've touched some beautiful clouds which cushioned you on your journey.



I felt your pain
In the midst of all your confusion
I watched you as you struggle in frustration
Could it be that you're facing retribution
Or did you fall into that illusion?


The illusion that the world had failed you
And you no longer cared and your friends were few
And you felt that life was so useless
So useless that you became so careless

I felt your pain
When you said you were feeling empty
That the aching of your heart ran deeply
That you cried yourself to sleep all night and day
How you wished you could have ran far, far away

I feel your joy
When you say, you're glad you were tested
Tested though torturing becomes your strength
The strength that tomorrow always comes
Tomorrow is here, it's called today, You are home

I feel your joy
You are a new person and now have a new spirit
You can climb high mountains, You're so upbeat
You are grateful that you have braved the tests
Goodbye unhappiness, welcome home happiness

HAPPINESS IS A STATE OF MIND


Written by D.C. Perez
All rights reserved. © 2009/03/22 Dc Perez

I FORGIVE YOU.....

Is there something that has been bothering you for a while; a day, month or even years? Seems you've been carrying around a lifetime of burdens, doesn't it?. Do you have and feel the need to forgive?

It may be something that's burdening you, no matter how happy you may assume you feel unless you haven't forgiven you are in denial, you can never be truly happy unless you forgive.

Do you search your soul and found there's something you might be guilty of whether it's jealousy, greed, envy or just simply harboring negative feelings that you are so absorbed into it that you draw everyone around you into your negative realm or simply despise people because you think the world is just a hard and wicked place to live in because someone has wronged or hurt you.

Firstly you need to forgive yourself, then you can have room and compassion to forgive others, it begins with you. Look into yourself, your inner guidance, search your self/soul, as long as you find that peace within yourself, you'll find the spirit to forgive others quite easily.

Let go off those negative vibes, aura that has been swallowing you, your spirit feels lighter. your spirit can now soar and you feel free, a new person. Forgiveness heals your tormented spirit and mind and sets you free.

Try forgiving that person today before it's too late, you're not promised the next moment. Whatever wrong, as hurting as it is or was, to move on in life you must forgive. You must let go, and let God.

I know there are some very evil and cruel people who do not care of the pain they have caused someone as they have evil tendencies, but dwelling on their evil behaviour harbors hatred, bitterness and resentment making it harder to rise above it and heal and move on.

Try as hard as it may be; to slowly let go and forgive, to heal that tormented mind, it's the only way to heal from that pain of what was done to you so cruelly. When you don't forgive, you continue to accommodate hatred, bitterness and resentment in the abodes of your heart and soul and you begin to see the world through those eyes, beginning to think the world owes you and then you fall into the self-pity category.

Do not wait until it's too late. Now is never too late. Do it right now. Break free the chains of the unforgiving spirit that stifles and keeps you from soaring. The aroma of forgiveness lingers long after you make that great step. Do it with chin up and walk on with a big smile.

I am so happy the spirit of forgiveness lives in me, My burdens are so much lighter; very much lighter.

Copyrighted 2009/03/29 DC Perez